Out of focus, out of focus
I don't call nobody notice, nobody know this
I'm invisible even to myself
On my mattress, on my mattress
My only friends are dust and ashes, blunts and matches
It's a ritual but it don't help
I push everyone away
Before they can runaway
I'm not gonna let you see
Everything underneath
I put up a thousand walls
So I don't get hurt no more
All you get is what you see
This ain't no apology
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
I don't think I'm ever gonna find someone
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
With the lights off, with the lights off
I don't have to see the things I'm terrified of
I'm invisible keep it to myself
Keep it to myself
Keep it to myself, baby
TVs on but I ain't watching
I just tryna to fill the silence while I lie here
It's a ritual but it don't help
Help
Help
Help
I put up a thousand walls
So I don't get hurt no more
All you get is what you see
This ain't no apology
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
I don't think I'm ever gonna find someone
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
Please don't leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
Please don't leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
Please don't leave me alone
Please don't leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
I don't think I'm ever gonna find someone
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
I don't think I'll ever be good enough
Voices in my head wish I could turn 'em off
Don't you leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
Please don't leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
Please don't leave me alone
Leave me alone
Won't you carry me home
2020