starring in my own existence denying
what it's like segments of recollections
dazzling white anger sliced emotions apathy
irony disillusions whisper sorrows in my ears
I fear the anger
I fear the rage
I fear the sorrow
I fear the shame
won't be the servant
won't be the slave
won't suffer under domination
won't you break slowly melting light
and shadow into a darkness
called delight downers clouds
attacked ashamed and numb