as we were talking outside it was cold
we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter
my wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please don't tell her or anyone but I need to talk to somebody
you said "wouldn't it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes before I died I'd be filled
with such regret before I took my last breath"
and I said "you're willing to tell me this now and you're not going to die anytime soon"
and I said "I haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything"
and you said "yes, but you've been wearing leather"
and laughed and said "we're at the top of the food chain, yes, you're still a fine woman
and I cringed
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said "good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you're successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money"
and when I walked by they said "thank you too dear"
I was all pigtails and cords and there was a day when i would've said something like "hey dude i could buy and sell this place so kiss it"
I too once thought I was owed something
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow and I too once thought life was cruel
it's a cycle really you think I'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you
I think you're insensitive and i don't feel heard
and i said "do you believe we are fundamentally judgemental? fundamentally evil?"
and you said "yes"
I said "I don't believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad"
you said "well what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid and she threw a shoe at his head and I think what he did was wrong and I would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him"
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together